Back to it
Started: Monday, September 25, 2000 22:15
Finished: Monday, September 25, 2000 22:43
You'll see
You think I can't go on another day
You think I have nothing
Without you by my side
You'll see
Somehow Some way
You think that I can never laugh again
You'll see
You think that you've destroyed my faith in love
You think after all you've done
I'll never find my way back home
You'll see
Somehow someday
All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive
All on my own
I don't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see
You think that you strong but you are weak
You'll see
It takes more strength to cry
Admit defeat
I have truth on my side
You only have deceit
You'll see somehow someday
All by myself
I don't need anyone at all
I know I'll survive
I know I'll stay alive
I'll stand on my own
I won't need anyone this time
It will be mine
No one can take it from me
You'll see
You'll see
You'll see
You'll see
Well... We're certainly on the Madonna kick lately now, aren't we? Here's to hoping this doesn't foreshadow anything ugly....
I don't think it does.
And, it would seem that almost simultaniously, all the content vultures return to the scene. Geographically disparate, but united in some insane compulsion to type words about our personal lives and stick them on web pages. Yes indeed.
Today, returning to work was like... a relief almost. Although I was so fscking tired (and cold; how wierd for me!) this morning, it wasn't even funny. But still, just being back in my old familiar cubicle, getting work done at a steady and reasonable pace, without feeling like I had to fight my console for every line of code. Much better. And leaving the office while there was still sunshine outside. Imagine!
I had... ahem... words with my supervisor about the Atlanta trip. Something along the lines of a more professionally worded version of, "There's no way in hell you'll ever to convince me to go through that again." More professionally worded, of course. :)
I got a personal apology for not being informed ahead of time about the expense stuff. At this point, what else could really be done? I also got words out about how I felt I really was far less productive, on a per-hour basis, plus the whole strain on my sanity just isn't something I care to go through again. So what was the point of the whole thing? Well, some things just didn't quite go like some people had planned and hoped. So be it. To err is human. As Richard Fish would say, Bygones.
So, today, I again worked like a normal person. Now, technically, Twilight Zone is still very much in effect. In fact, it will probably continue to be in effect for longer than was initially planned. :(
For me though, the real hell is over. Work can be work again. Just go in, do my job, do it to the best of my ability, and know that not everything is going to shatter in my face like it did last week. I can handle that right now.
Of course, I went to acting class tonight. That was good for me. Monologue reading/reciting. Now that I've said it in front of the class and in front of another person, now ideas about how I might convey things have been springing up. I'll think about it some more, and I'm sure there will be further instruction next week.
(And yes, I did pretty much have it memorized after that first plane ride. Not that hard really. Especially when it's relatively short, and so many of the lines rhyme. :)
I'll be needing sleep now. Nighty night, content vultures.