Ever just feel like throwing yourself to fates? Saying, "Do with me what you want, dammit! I am what I am. I am who I am. If I am to be punished for it, so be it. If I am to be elevated, then I'll accept that too."

You might even "want" to become egoless, but that is pointless, because the ego is coming along for the ride, like it or not. It might even be possible for the ego to be banished, but if so, why banish it? Isn't the desire that "wants" to get rid of ego also, itself, part of the ego?

I am a leaf on the wind. Wash's final words. (If that was a spoiler for you, then you're too late to the party for me to care, because it's already disappeared even from the cheap theatre.)

It is with these thoughts that I depart on this most auspicious of days.