Twilight Zone
Started: Tuesday, September 5, 2000 17:42
Finished: Tuesday, September 5, 2000 18:26
For a concise and fitting description of my day at work today, see title.
What else to say.... a ton of stuff, and not much, all at the same time. I really don't feel like iterating through all that my brain has been going through on this day, even in an indirect and vague way. Besides being, well, tedious to go back and try to re-experience everything so I can find some creative way to express about it, I just don't think it needs to happen.
And the whole time, in some perverse way, I kept thinking, "How will I go about describe this on my web page tonight?"
Well, ok. I will say one bit. The question which kept echoing through my mind, a famous and renound philosophy of living life. Cherished by many, mocked by many others. Whenever one wonders if one is can really make it through. Whenever an obstacle seems too large to overcome. Whenever an unbearable uncertainty arises, it always pays to ask yourself one question: What Would Xena Do?
Yes, my friends. This is The Way.
(Netforum-ers would understand, except I doubt any of them are still drifting in to read this. I could be wrong.)
And what of it all? There are times when I have to ask myself seriously: What do I really want out of this life? What is most important to me? Where do I want to focus my energies, such that this FOCUS (a very important word) will yield a result I find desirable?
I can name with certainty some things that I know I like. I can name with certainty some things that I know I don't like. You can say to me, "Would you like to take a step in this direction?" I can emphatically answer Yes, or No. But then, what of the consequences? Have I considered those?
"You determine your own level of involvement!"
--Tyler Durden.
On one of the commentary tracks, someone mentioned how these words can be taken in a grander context. While in the context of the movie, Tyler was of course refering to Project Mayhem, the phrase could also be applied to just about anybody, in any situation. You determine your own level of involvement. How true!
Yadda yadda yadda. New I'm just regurgitating. To be honest, right now I feel about five steps more upbeat than I did on my way home from work. Might this have something to do with the news that the DSL line has been returned to a working state in my absensce? Nah. ;)
Ok, for all the bad things I've said in the past about U.S. ?est, I must admit that this time they did get right on the ball this time, once the weekend was over. Can I blame them for taking the long weekend off? No, not really, because I did the same thing. ;)
But for future reference guys: Pick a better time to have the thing break down. Just at the beginning of a 3-day weekend, before a Saturday night fest is planned. Really. If the line has to be down three days, I'd much prefer a Monday-Tuesday-Wednesday during the work week combo, when I'm not going to be around as much to care about it anyway.
(But on the plus side, I probably wouldn't have gotten my room cleaned the way I did yesterday if there had been net access to distract me. A blessing in disguise, perhaps?)
As if to further the Twilight Zone feeling, on my way home, when I switched to The Peak, they were playing... Some wierd, wierd shit. No, it wasn't Spanish. We knew they had been bought by some Spanish broadcasting company or something. But this was... like... light, easy listening stuff from a decade or two ago. In English! I don't know what's going on. Perhaps I should just change that preset, go through the grieving period, and remember a better time when the station had its dignity, rather than watch it gradually degrade into... I don't even want to know.
I get home, and mom says (a) they came to repair the line. Woohoo! (b) bouncing's car battery has just blown up out in the middle of somewhere, and she is going to pick him up. That's too wierd. I know it's selfish, but... my first thought: Hope that doesn't happen to my car.
Wow.
And I gotta figure out where my priorities are. Did I already say that? Oh yes, I guess I did. Well, it's true.
Then there's this question of uploading the "new look". I know I said I'd do it. It looks beeeautiful it Mozilla. But looking at it now in The Legacy Browser, and I have to ask myself: If I were a reader, and for some odd reason, I insisted on using the so-called stable release, would I continue to be a regular visitor? Maybe I would. I mean, it's viewable, readable, but so.... NOT pretty.
When I showed it to Jaeger on the fest, he offered that for someone who doesn't know what it's supposed to look like, it would probably be fine. I'm not so sure. I think I need to tweak the tints a bit. Maybe that would be a good idea anyway. As it is, the left and right columns clash in a not-so-nice way, IMO. I think I can do better. But this, I promise: I will upload WHATEVER I have before I go to bed tonight. So I solemnly swear.
I gotta just lay my head back, crank the music, and think for a while too. Like right now. But I'll sync first. For the sake of the content vultures, I will.
Downtime.