Ok, now this one certainly won't be as huge as last night's monstrosity, but the timespan might be rather large, because I plan to type a little, go watch the tv that's worth watching, and then return during commercials or when Fox decides to interlace crap with the good stuff, and I'll add bits and pieces as I feel like it, maybe even referencing segments of shows I've just seen if the mood strikes me. Sound good?

A quick sentence or two before Futurama begins:

As I see it, there are several divergent sexual ...

[Off to watch Futurama.]

...

[Wrap for Act 1]

This reminds me. My PC clock appears to have drifted significantly. Better fix that. There. That's better.

[More Futurama...]

Hmmm. I'm not sure this rambling during commercials is really gonna work that well. Perhaps if I just come back here during the shit I don't feel like watching.

As I see it, there are several distinct sexual groups. The most obvious, and most prominent in our society being the heterosexuals. Then there's the homosexuals, subclassified into gays (male) and lesbians (female). Up until recently, they were largely scorned and put down by the mainstream. In fact, in many sectors, they still are.

Ok, but that's all patently obvious. Of course, there are also bisexuals, alien fetishists, male wannabe lesbians, blah blah blah. Then, we get to a whole other group of people. A type that I'm going to refer to as the anti-sexualists.

Anti-sexualists believe the entire mating song and dance to be a crock. They shout, "It's better to be single! Why should I be beholden to some 'partner'? I'd rather go my own way, make my own rules, and not have to answer to ANYONE." (And just so we're clear. I'm not attributing that quote to anyone. I'm making it up as I go. Any vague resemblence to what other anti-sexualists, non-anti-sexualists, or other garden variety spinsters on the fringes of society are saying is purely incidental. We clear?)

Being an anti-sexualist doesn't mean you might not also fall into one of the other above categories. It simply means that one who practices anti-sexualist theory chooses not engage in what could be considered sexual or romantic activity. (In the old days, they used to call them "nuns" and "priests", but since both of those terms hold an extremely strong religous connotation, and many modern anti-sexualists do not necessarily belong to any organized religion, I prefer to simply say "anti-sexualists".)

Ok, getting to something resembling a cohesive point: The reason I'm babbling about all this is that until very recently, I would have classified myself as fitting squarely into the anti-sexualist camp. (If there is such a thing as a "camp" for such people. Usually, by their very nature, they tend to be suspicious of and avoid any kind of "camps" or generalized groupings, prefering to each stand on their own ground, not letting others claim to speak for them.) I say "until very recently" not because I have moved from the world of single-dom to that of couple-dom (and I haven't even mentiond the types who prefer groups of more than two), but because I have expressed and made the decision to strive for such.

Why have I made such a decision? It's a question worth asking. And I'll attempt to come up with something resembling an answer after The Simpsons. bbl.

[Simpsons]

Okee dokee. Now let's all just grab a bite of tomacco and continue this little idiocy.

So, why would I want to make the transition from being an anti-sexualist into becoming a practicing heterosexual, or perhaps, more specifically, a male wannabe lesbian?

Have I simply been influenced by seeing one too many advertisements from the military industrial entertainment complex, designed to keep the populace in a perpetual state of dissatisfaction, so the lemmings will continue to purchase useless trinkets, attend lame dance parties, and further the cycle of the material world, which can then be used to exploit the masses -- turn them into virtual slaves -- as they vainly try to augment their pathetic lives by making more money, producing more useless shit, and ultimately funnelling more power to the top of the pointy haired chain? Is THAT what my docile little brain has now fallen victim to?

So now I think I need to be part of a "couple". Given that I am not, the theory goes that I will be unsatisfied, hence, easily exploitable by the consumerism industry? And even if I did have that "partner", as the theory goes, chances are that the relationship would be less than ideal. Certainly not up to par with what the media would purport as ideal. So really, what mainstream society has given us is a no-win situation. Not surprising. That's just how the power brokers at the top would want it. So, no matter the personal conclusion on the subject, I wholeheartedly join those who would say, "Fuck the mainstream. Fuck the media. Fuck everything that they would shove up the collective ass of the proletariat."

On the other hand, sex, sexuality, and yes, breeding, is a natural and GOOD part of the human experience. At least, that's what I choose to believe. If it weren't, there wouldn't be so much there for The Syndicate to exploit. It would be a non-issue. They'd probably find some other way to fuck people over, but it wouldn't be sex. As it is, sex sells. And there is a reason for that.

Human beings, with very few exceptions, are sexual creatures. For centuries, the church has profited off of the denial of that fact. Ask the Satanists. They know all about it. :) (I'd pull up some shit to quote from their web page, but my swap is nearing exhaustion, and I want to finish this before watching that ultimate couple of the idealistic realm (excepting Xena and Gab of course), Mulder and Scully.)

I have chosen to stop denying it in myself. Further, I have chosen to satisfy, the best way I know how, these desires which I believe truly originate from my innermost being. Not some scheme concocted by the media. The media likes to take advantage of it, but they didn't create it.

Given my philosophy of life, I shall pursue this to its very end. Swap full. X-Files coming. I'll finish with this Enigma quote:

The principles of lust
Are easy to understand
Do what you feel
Feel until the end
The principles of lust
Are burned in your mind
Do what you want
Do it until you find
love

thank you.