Today, I slept away much of the day. Last night, I was up quite late burning nervous energy playing with html and hacking up my web code. Now, I write a few thoughts briefly before I go to work.

I just re-read Ran Prieur's How to Survive the Crash and Save the Earth. Though I read it when he first published it nearly a year ago, sometimes it really does help to have the memory refreshed. Especially at a time like now, when I find myself drifting on the edge of depression, and a general feeling of purposelessness, such inspiration proves vital to sustaining me on my path.

The steps he recommendes:

1. Abandon the world.
2. Abandon hope.
3. Drop out.
4. You are here to help.
5. Learn skills.
6. Find your tribe.
7. Get on some land.
8. Save part of the Earth.
9. Save human knowledge.

Though of course these need not be followed in a strictly chronological manner, there is a logical progression to it. For myself, in recent weeks, I've been intuitively recognizing that I'm at the point where need to "learn skills" and "find my tribe." Yet both of these have seemed, well, somewhat daunting as of late.

Of course, I know it doesn't happen all at once. But I also can't help but feel I've been stagnating.

A few days ago, I finished reading Tom Brown Jr's The Tracker (borrowed from Linknoid). It was an inspiring book. I'm tempted to get into some his other stuff, especially the field guides and references. (Though the stories he tells are definitely entertaining as well.)

At some point, I'd also like to try heading out into the wilderness to see how well I can survive by myself for a few days, though again, right now it all seems rather daunting.

Sometimes, it's just easier to curl up under a blanket and enjoy the warm respite of sleep for as long as possible.

However, the time will come, perhaps soon, when I will need to crawl out of this cocoon, and let the future become the present.