The most beautiful candle I have ever seen JUST STOPPED BURNING. I hope the things I am seeing are not symbolic of the real world. If they are, then I have lost my mind, this world is alien to me, and I want to zone out and watch my Enigma videos while I can still enjoy them today, because I will be a very sick and cynical vampire tomorrow.

When I push play again in a few moments, I will be re-opening the seal the woman tried to plant in my head. I will be opening the Garden of Eden back up. I will be journeying to heaven with my memories in tact. I will witness in these music videos all the secret porn of my parents, grandparents, dead great grandparents, and youths who lived long before them when this earth was young with vitality. I may not be living in that world anymore, but I still like to reap some of the pleasures that are here for me.

The Catholic Church has been a breeding ground for incest for many, many hundreds of years, and everyone on the inside knows it. Now these powerful mind magic videos, woven by some of the best musical talent in the world, will make me curious, even though I should be conditioned to fear. I will open up my fragile mind all over again, and say SHOW ME MORE.

"And on that night, I learned that I was a vampire. And I weeped at my own beauty, along with that of the dead world around me."