While exploring various facets of my recent life (and pains) through the Content Collective, I came to a realization. Somehow, it brings a little bit of peace to the recent chaos of my life.

Simply this:

That everything I have (and don't have) right now is somehow a product of every choice I have made. I may weep and bash my head against the wall (metaphorically in this case; thank goodness), but I must ultimately return to this fact: ALL of it -- good, bad, and excruciating -- is a result of my own actions.

To oversimplify, I had options A, B, and C available to me. Suppose I choose option B. I get everything option B intails. Some of it, I like; some of it, I don't. Even if I didn't have foreknowledge about everything that option B would bring, what good is it to go through life lamenting all the aspects of options A and C that I didn't choose?

Better to just take what is here, learn as best I can from what has happened, and keep on going with life.

Maybe this has been obvious to the rest of you all along. If so, congratulations to you. Personally, I find that I am just finding it out all over again. As such, it almost appears as a novel revelation, despite the obviousness. Odd.

In other news, I found tonight's non-sequitur postmodern comedy mythology to be quite entertaining, if a tad obvious at times.

And now, I will attempt to sleep to dream again.