This morning, I forced myself to get out of bed and go to work, despite great duress from certain parts of my emotional psyche. I am glad I did so.

It appears that the nightmare which has been my ongoing internal seige for the past several days has finally begun to dissipate. "Normal" reality is gradually returning, albeit still a slightly skewed-seeming world through my eyes.

Got a call from my therapist. Conveniently, it came right in the middle of my lunch hour outdoor exercise session. The news couldn't have been better. One of the psychiatrists at the center was going to phone in a prescription for me right away. It will be a slightly different variety of lithium that what I've had, which I can test out until my first real psychiatrist appointment a week from Monday.

This new form of pill is supposed to release itself gradually into the stomach over a period of several hours, which should help reduce (or ideally eliminate) the wave of nausea I've become accustomed to, even under my self-medicated reduced dosages. Until my first appointment, I'll be taking a dosage higher than I've been tolerating with the capsules, but lower than what I was prescribed way back when, so as to avoid overdosing me before I get a real checkup.

I was barely able to contain my gratitude. Real help has arrived.

As far as work itself today, my attention span and ability to concentrate were at an all time low almost all day long. Fortunately, there was nothing terribly urgent to be done. Still, I couldn't help but feel a bit embarrassed that little minor stuff was taking me so long. My progress could have been measured using the "hours per line of code" metric.

On the plus side, I did get the best juggling lesson I've had in my entire life. :)

So...

These last few days have indeed been a bizarre trip. Not one I'd care to repeat, in most respects. (Although I do think I'll go back to the rec center again soon.)

And I survive.

That which does not kill me makes me stronger.

I think that statement applies well to the inner world as well as the outer.

...I think.

And now, I think I'll see about eating some evening sustenance. A ceremonial rambling is planned for later this evening.