3/13/96
Right now, in the United States, there is an active
attempt to rewrite our history going on, right as
I write this. It is subtle. It comes from the
desire to forget our mistakes. Indeed, its effect
is more widespread than the U.S. It is happening
all around the world. There are those who would have
us believe that the Holocaust never happened. There
are those who would have us believe that the Europeans
who came to North America were perfectly justified
in their actions. There are those who would have
us believe that the tribes who came before us were
savages and beasts. There are also those who would
have us believe that Native Americans lived in a
Utopia, until the Europeans came to destroy it. There
are those who would have us believe that Germany
is no longer a facist state, even though they use
Nazi-like tactics to supress their population from
speaking or sharing. They think that by telling
publications not to use the letters D-O-O-M, in
that order, they can somehow heal the wounds
inflicted by Hitlar. They are gravely mistaken.
There are those who would say that white men were
created by mad scientists. There are those who
would say that black men are the "mud people".
There are those who would say that women exist
strictly for the purpose of pleasing men. There are
those who would say that men are pigs. Some people
believe the welfare state to be the cause of a
dependency class. Others believe the welfare state
to be the way out of poverty. There are groups
who believe that a small but devious bunch of
conspirators are ruling the course of human events.
Others think that we are living in a senseless
anarchy, where everyone does as they please, with
no real governing body. There are churches who
profess to be the end-all and be-all for the human
race. They believe themselves to be the only hope
for humanity to survive. Some churches admit that
they are not for everyone, but these kind of churches
do not really teach dogmatic doctrines to their
congregations. Instead, they all have people make
up their own belief systems for themselves. Hence
there is no central belief, or any central belief
which guides them is constantly vulnerable to alteration.
Hence, they are not true churches. They are social
get-togethers. In order for members to truly
form a church, they must share a common value or
belief system. Churches which do not do this ARE
NOT CHURCHES. They aren't even religions. Some
people say that free love is what is killing our
culture. Others say that it's the only workable
solution to the world's problems.
ALL
OF THESE THINGS ARE TRUE AND CAN BE PROVEN!
Where does this leave YOU? Which doctrines will YOU believe? It is something that only YOU can decide. YOU must take a look at the world and see what makes the most sense to YOU. If none of it makes any sense to you, then I share a common belief with you. It doesn't make sense to me either. I just have to live with it. Everyone in this world has to find a way to cope with it, one way or another.
What do I do? Well, recently, my beliefs have been in a sort of constant fluxuation. Some days, I wake up and think about how wonderful God is. Other days, I wonder how such a being could even exist. A few days ago, I was harboring conspiracy theories, today I'm more inclined to think that all the people in the world are bumbling idiots just wandering around with blindfolds on. Sometimes, I get scared and think Madonna has got my mind in an eternal trap that I'll never get out of. Other times, I welcome this eternal trap, as it gives me a chance to believe that I am loved. IT IS CRAZY! I AM CRAZY!
So, should we just forget all this craziness? Should we wipe from our memories the pain of the past? If we do, we might find innocence, or at least the illusion thereof, and live happier lives. But if you don't remember your mistakes, how can you learn from them? I don't have the answers. Well, some of the time I feel like I do, and that feels really good when it happens. Should I be thrown in an insane asylum? Maybe I should, but I hope no one does it to me. Even if I am crazy, I'd like to think that I'm doing some good here. I'd like to believe that some of these words are making people laugh and others cry of happiness, and I hope they can inspire people to love one another a little more. I have learned, from Madonna, that giving other people these feelings actually makes me feel much better. Is it just a self-designed hoax to repress and deny all the bad feelings from my childhood? It could be, but I still like it.
So, what shall we do with history? Throw it away? Alter it? Fabricate a new one? That is something for each and every person who lives in this world to decide amongst themselves.